Life Or Death???

During the tough days of life I prayed for death......
Death never came to me but I longed for it
Knowing what I long for wouldn't make a difference.......
Hoping against hope I waited for it with closed eyes n' open arms
Waiting for my end......I moved on
I moved on through those tough days........
Fighting pain n' over powering destiny
The race with life was won.......
I fought through those days.....
Days,when I longed for death....
How wrong I was to ask for death......
But it was the only thing that inspired me
I knew it would come to me someday.....so I moved on
Moved on in search of death and conquered life.....
Death had to come to me........so it did
But now........I wanna live the life I conquered
Now.........I long for life......
What do I want???
What am I in search of???
Where did I begin???
Where am I headin???
I had a life.....I wanted death....
Now that i've got it....I can't live with it
Why did I want it if I can't live with it???
Do I want to just keep wanting???
Do I want to want???
Do I want to live or Do I live to want???
Do I want to die or Do I die to want???
What do I want???
What did I begin with????
Life Or Death???